Am I what you want yet? I'm turning out just like you. I'm bi father yes it's true. I can't wait to be sitting in hell with you. I have the perfect guy he treats me like you'd want. He is never cruel although i can be at times. I wait in my room for you to tell me if you like what I'm becoming. Am I still you beautiful little princess or am I still the bitch you say I was. I'll never know how to react when i have someone new. I want that someone to be just like you. You were my best friend even though I didn't act like it at times. I tried to do what you told me and run as far away from this place where I'm being hurt. I'm trying so hard to do the things you wanted. So I ask why am I the only one thats hurting? Why am I the one thats mocked? I'm your daughter don't you understand I'll never forget the things I've accomplished and the things i will never be able to do. All I wish for is to be with you one last time. Go riding in the car talking about all of our secrets I told you my life problems and you helped me with few. You told me your life story and I couldn't help you at all. If you still think I'm a bitch all I don't care because all the time I've spent with you meant the world to me. Now I have a boyfriend who treats me like you did. Except he is my age and not on the sex offenders list. I understand why it hurts late at night because I remember all the secrets that you told me not to tell. Now I know how it fells to lose a best friend but not only that I lost you my father in a horrible car crash. Now my doctor is telling me to stop stressing or I may die but I can't stop stressing because I have no father to tell all my stories to and dye my hair weird colors while mom is sitting there watching a movie at home. I miss sitting in your trailer late at night waiting for you to tell me all my bowling mistakes I made that day. I love you dad if you didn't know. I can't wait until I see you. It shalln't be soon. I am not ready to die I won't be for a while, but as long as you are in my heart and walking among the earth as a dead soul. I will always remember what i need to do so I can be here for my children like you were for me.